It's easier to run

Well it's only day 3 of a new semester and I'm already fighting the urge to despair.

For starters, Educational Psychology is looking like it will turn out just as I thought it would - a class where I learn absolutely nothing but am forced to memorize a bunch of jargon to mask the fact that I'm not really saying anything (toss around enough theory names and I guess people will think you're smart).

Then there are my classes that have actual value. Prose comp is being taught by big K, whom I alternate between quite liking and quite disliking. It's a very odd mix of feelings. Hopefully it will be good, I'm holding judgement for now (although after I write this I need to write my Latin "diary" entry for the day... sigh). Medieval Latin is ALSO being taught by him, so this should play out interestingly. Meets tomorrow for the first time. Tonight we had our first meeting of Virgil. I've learned that even though I had a semester-long class on the Eclogues, I don't remember a single thing about them. Oops. I have never before had a class where the norm is 350 to 400 lines per week, and I am honestly pretty scared. That's of course in addition to Medieval. At least Roman Civ (which I'm TAing) shouldn't be much work, just read the materials and grade tests/papers. Oh, and I have to get my pre-practicum writeups finished and take the Latin MTEL and pray I don't fail.

I would really like to go home.

There are positives, though; over half of my students this semester are ones I had last semester. I love them. I got to read my feedback from last semester and some of them were so sweet it made me feel all good about myself. Overall they came out pretty well, which I hope means I'm doing something right. I'm pretty sure the teaching will be the best part again this semester, which gives me hope. Ryan's loaned me Prison Break season 1; it's superb and if I ever get time I'll finish it. And last but not least, I've gone out with some of my friends here more already, and it's good to not feel so isolated. So I'll remind myself that I haven't been beaten by school yet and keep my head up. Bring it on, grad school.

Songs of the night are "Easier to Run" by Linkin Park and "Nomah's Land" by Métisse. The second would be on the soundtrack to my movie.